day -1

Uneventful...that's the word of the day, and we like it that way. Camryn is starting to hit the lull that comes before transplant and lasts until engraftment. She is pretty tired today and resting...it's okay to see her this way as it is expected. Her appetite is pretty non-existent...we did manage to persuade her to try a Popsicle, so that was a step in the positive direction.

Camryn is on her IV fluids to keep her hydrated and her cyclosporin (anti-rejection meds), so far she's been doing alright. She is pretty sleepy, she napped for a long time this afternoon which was much needed. Thankfully they held off giving her benadryl so that maybe, hopefully she'll sleep tonight. I'm keeping my fingers crossed...

The highlight of the day was a visit from Joanne...our very bestest friend from Cedars. Joanne is a very special friend to us as she walked some very dark days with us...she is our friend and we love her so. It was nice to sit and chat with Joanne like we used to...nice to chat with someone who understands the journey. The Lord truly blessed us today with a visit from Joanne.

We also found out today that Wyatt's surgery time got moved up to 7:30am tomorrow morning...so Daddy and Grandma Mikels will be bringing him down nice and super early in the morning. Wyatt is getting to bed early, hopefully...I just talked to Jason and he asked Wyatt what he is doing tomorrow to which Wy replied, "going to the doctors to give Camryn my juice..." So he gets it in his limited two-year-old understanding...praying for Wyatt tomorrow...

Camryn's nurse brought in a monitor for tomorrow, of course Camryn is all about the details and asked what that was for...her nurse explained that it is for tomorrow. "Do you know what tomorrow is?" she asked..."Yes, Wyatt is giving me his juice..."

And that's as simple and complicated as it gets...

Very simple in their understanding...very complicated in our understanding. We know that starting tomorrow all eyes will be on Camryn through everything...everything. Watching for anything, any sign of anything....

Tonight I feel a very strong sense of relief and dread...relief that tomorrow is here. We've had quite a build up to this day...we knew in February that we were headed to transplant and now we are here. We are here...Camryn's ready, Wyatt's ready...

Dread...in the what ifs that come afterwards...the amazingly long list of things. But, the doctors are so great in trying to assure us that Camryn did so well...she can do it again!

Praying for her little body...fight little one, fight.

Thanks to all of you for your thoughts and prayers...tomorrow is a big day and I promise to update tomorrow.

Tomorrow is DAY...and the peace comes knowing who holds DAY.

HE is there....