precious gift...

Today as Camryn and I played beauty shop...we gave each other manicures and pedicures and yes, I bet you've never had a pedicure as great as mine. *wink* And we had lots of fun...fun that mended some ache in my heart. A heart that has been on edge today as we waited to hear from Camryn's team as to when we would be admitted.

We got the final word today and the plan is to admit Camryn on Sunday around 10am and then we would meet with the pediatric surgery team for her central line placement consult. On Monday she will have her central line placed and then start her arsenic treatment that afternoon. If all goes well that will run for 5 days and then we would go home and do the rest of the treatment as an out patient. We are praying for this to work out! As we would love to be home for those 4 weeks.

Camryn is doing well...as well as can be expected for a little one with leukemia cells in her body. As well as a 4 year old with cancer can be I guess...no that's wrong...Camryn is doing what Camryn does best. Fighting...fighting to be well.

Last night as I was removing her bandage from her bone marrow aspiration she was crying and asking me not to hurt her. If that doesn't break a mommy's heart...it nearly crushed mine. After we had finished that ordeal Jason and I talked with Camryn about what is to come. We talked about her juice (blood) making her sick again...that she would need a central line...medicine...and to be in the hospital. Honestly, she took it well and in true Camryn fashion she asked when she gets to come home. She is glad for a line as that means no more pokes with needles for blood draws and IVs...this was welcomed news.

As Jason and I tucked Camryn in she was the sweetest angel...she said to Jason as he kissed her goodnight, "Daddy, I hope you, mommy and Wyatt never get sick like me and you don't get shots, IVs or lines."...tears flowed. Even in the midst of the storm that is raging in her body and in her life she cares for others...truly, she is a gift. A most precious gift.

We thank the Lord richly for this angel in our midst...for teaching us how to gracefully walk through even the darkest night with a hope that again Jesus will make her better.

I heard this song today...never heard it before, but it brought tears to my eyes.

Your baby blues
So full of wonder
Your curly cues
Your contagious smile
And as I watch
You start to grow up
All I can do is hold you tight

Knowing clouds will rage
And storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash all around
But you will be safe in my arms

Story books full of fairy tales
Of kings and queens and the bluest skies
My heart is torn just in knowing
You'll someday see the truth from lies

Knowing clouds will rage
And storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash all around
But you will be safe in my arms

Castles they might crumble
Dreams may not come true
But you are never all alone
Because I will always
Always love you

Clouds will rage
And storms will race in
But you will be safe in my arms
Rains will pour down
Waves will crash all around
But you will be safe in my arms

~ Plumb

A few more days at home...a few more tears...a few more smiles...but, most of all a few more days with our precious gift...

Camryn Lee