Today was the first day of school for me and Jason...it was a long day. Both of us left for work feeling very disappointed as we had chatted many a time about Camryn's first day of Kindergarten and how Jason would go with us so he could be there for her big day. Well, that would have been today...I won't lie we both struggled a bit with letting go of that *plan*.
Yes, long ago we learned a very difficult lesson on plans...that they really don't matter. We can hope, wish, plan all we want and it really comes down to nothing. You see we've dreamed big dreams for our kids and have had to hand them over to the Lord time and time again...
And today we did it yet again...
We both made it through our days and I'm sure that the coming days will get easier as we adjust to our new routines. It's hard facing the challenges of a new year...feels so long ago that we were here again, believing in a great year ahead and then February came. I guess it just seems so unreal to be there again and believe again...
But we do and we are.
Today Camryn's teacher called to set up her first day...tomorrow! Camryn will meet her teacher and officially have her first day of school. She is excited beyond belief! She's been dancing around the house singing a little tune about meeting her teacher...honestly, she is SO excited! As the smile came to my face I realized something...
That the Lord's never left us...
Oh we're dreaming different dreams, our lives have taken turns we'd rather not have taken, we've had to resolve that we are not in control time and time again, we've had to let go...
Inasmuch as the Lord has carried Camryn through leukemia, two bone marrow transplants and throughout her days of recovery, He continues to carry her now. As I was talking with a friend of mine today she reminded me that God has something good in all of this for Camryn...that He will bless her in amazing ways. And really He will.
Because Camryn's journey isn't only about me and Jason...it truly is her journey. She has endured, accomplished, survived more than I ever thought possible and she is doing it even now.
All glory is His...forever and ever.
On the medical side of things Camryn's rash is spreading a bit, so we are heading to clinic on Thursday to have it looked at and maybe have her meds altered a bit. Other than itching the rash doesn't seem to bother Camryn, she has no other symptoms...and her energy is off the charts. This girl goes a hundred miles an hour...never looking back!
So tomorrow she starts another journey...school and we are so hopeful that this journey will be one of hope, restoration and renewal for Camryn. That maybe, hopefully she will begin to taste normal and just relish it...savor it.
After all she certainly deserves a little cherry on top...
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I hope that Camryn's first day with her teacher goes well and it's a double sundae as well as a cherry on the top :o)
It's so hot here that it doesnt feel as though summer is nearly over but I know we are getting there as it's getting darker earlier.
Here's to a great Autumn!!
Katie :o)
right there with you in having to let go of our plans and dreams...but new dreams are being made and i guess that's where the beauty is found, hard as it may be.
i'll be praying that cam's first day goes well and for her mommy & daddy's heart as well.
and yes, she MOST certainly deserves a cherry on top! two or three, actually...
love you all!
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